When he marries another man, breaks his big love's heart, and regrets it instantly...

Ashley looked at Jonathan again. Couldn’t look away now. Found himself staring, almost willing it to happen. 'Get up. If you want to say something, get up. Just stop crying.'
And Jonathan had his eyes on him now. Eyes that looked so hurt, so devastated, that Ashley could feel the hurt in his own body like it was a physical thing.